heart felt moments...

today i skipped school cos it was the sports carnival and i hate emmbarrassing myself in front of people. i woke up and julila and i had a ciggy (i decided id quit later!) and then i had a cup of coffee in the car on our way to pick the kids from school. when i got there there was a baby starling that had gotten nocked out of its nest and while we were all standing there figuring out what to do lara wrapped her arms around my thigh and was squeezing it and just feeling needed like i was comforting her, i was who she wanted at the most almost moved me to tears. i no its soppy but they barely ever show me affection so its really special... and then when i got home ash rang me and was saying how matt still loved emily nash and that she didnt no weather she should have a relationship with someone if thier whole heart wasnt in it. and they were talking about moving to townsville next year and maybe she would do her nursing degree there. also her mum now that her dad and mum have seperated has been kinda harsh and whenever they question it she says "this is me now its how i am so just get used to it" i told her i reckon she is just trying to be honest about her feelings and doesnt want to have to please anyone and right now she was upset but that she would even out soon enough...hopefully, my mum does that when she breaks up with a boyfriend... then ash and i said goodbye after hashing up some plans for the weekend. my mum rang and i told her about lara and how i remmeber doing that to my mum and how much i missed her. i told her ash and i were stressing and she said " oh the usual teenage dramas that seem so big?" and i explained that it was almost like we were skipping the teenage decisions and were making choices most people make in thier 20's and was just a little intimidating. sha said that as long as you had food and shelter you would be fine and that if i EVER needed her just to say so and she would get to me somehow ... it was then that i realsied ash and i would be good friends for a long time we have what it takes and i want to put the effort in same with matt there too good to lose..
xoxo ana